okay, back to my actual post

todayy, whole choir breakdown...tears were shed everywher...

it hurts to see such a scene. okay, i myself oso cry like shit.

i know we leaders shldnt cry...bt then, cant control. it hurts when he say he wanna leave. I REALLY HATE MYSELF sometimes for kept on out of pitch when he tested me alone. i know he gave me many chances. i know. i can tell that. which makes me even more sad...cos i kept on out of pitch. and the same phrase always tested. the irritating: and all arnd i heard u pass... I HATE THAT PHRASE. i already have phobia towards the phrase le...and i cant overcome it. I HATE it when i cant overcome. i gt mental block lahh....i wanna overcome it...bt always flop when tested alone. my whole voice will tense up and idk what shit i m singing. it is nt his scolding that make me tear so much todayy, it is i kept on singing out of pitch when so many ppl had helped me. i felt so guilty. i like pulling the choir down...todayy, many ppl cried. this shows how much we care bout choir. and yet, some juniors like bochap one. wth. which makes me so ... okay, enough of talking bout choir. when i gt back home, i was like soo tiredd...lie on the sofa for sooo longg...dont feel like moving at all. Zzz. i dont wanna think bout it le lahh. my singing is getting bad to worst...i feel like slapping myself=.= ARGHHHH!

Zzz...okay enough bout it. byee

1 more practice. jy choir.